Sunday, July 09, 2006sometimes i hate you.
i hate you for controlling my life.
i hate you for always making me feel inferior.
i hate you for all the tears i shed over your hurtful words.
i hate you to make me doubt if it's worthy to be alive.
i hate you for letting me think my life is empty.
i hate you for not respecting my decisions.
i hate you for my hesitation in loving my FATHER.
i hate you for making me hate my life.
i hate myself for hating you.
i don't want to hate you. it's such a strong word.
but the unwanted anger are stacking like dominoes.
for so i fear the day they fall.
i pray to God for his forgiveness
surely it's forbidden to hold such anger.
but i can't help it. i really do.
you bring out the worst in me.
loves*sarah //
